Well ... El Topo said he was good, and El Topo knows his stuff :-)
Anyway, I'm leaving Austin, about to get on my plane, and in just a few short days, I have a new romance and potentially a new teaching partner. There was a really beautiful moment when we could have written each other off and disconnected from each other. We could have taken the easy way out and said "dealbreaker" and so forth. We almost did. And then he got really, really honest, which was an invitation for me to do the same. Then we both got really, really honest and connected exactly where we were in that moment. We decided to find the places where we can help each other.
The most touching part was during the intimacy itself, when it got really intense and I was tempted to pull back. He held me close and said "stay with me." I did. :-)
Magic. Really beautiful surrender. Maybe there is hope for me to find intimacy and continuity and longevity all in the same place.
It just goes to show you that sometimes charm has substance underneath it. He wasn't joking about the one-way ticket :-)
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yeah I know what your saying...
It's like when you a share a beautiful moment with someone, it's almost as if there's a connection beginning to unfold between you, and it's just like when you let that happen... it's like you find yourself enjoying this intimacy with them...
and it could be the way how this person speaks to you, it could be when this person is writing to you... but either way... deep down inside you find that these feelings get more intense, as you take the time to get to know someone... and allow yourself to surrender to the intimacy that's unfolding between you...
Hmm, if it's who I think you're talking about, that man is trouble.
Maybe you could elaborate on what it would mean for you to find "intimacy and continuity and longevity" concurrently.
This is something that I have been considering for some time, so I am particularly interested in your perspective.
GS
GS,
This is the quotation from A Course in Miracles that comes to mind. The holy relationship is permanent:
"Before your brother's holiness the world is still, and peace descends on it in gentleness and blessing so complete, that not one trace of conflict still remains to haunt you in the darkness of the night. He is your Savior from the dreams of terror. He is the healing of your sense of sacrifice, and fear that what you have will scatter with the wind, and turn to dust. In him is your assurance God is here, and with you now. While he is what he is, you can be sure that God is knowable, and WILL be known to you. For He could never leave His own creation. And the sign that this is so lies in your brother, offered you that all your doubts about yourself may disappear before his holiness."
If a guy isn't going to stick around permanently, then he's not my holy relationship. Exclusivity I don't need and am not sure I want. Continuity and longevity, yes.
I may elaborate in a new post.
Thanks for asking :-)
xoxo,
Erika
I am happy that you found someone to share all that Shakti energy with you and not let it go to waste. ;)
I find it hard to believe some times that men try to have the intimacy part of the relationship without being intimate. Maybe I just don't understand the whole PUA thing, but to me, continuity and longevity are implied in intimacy. Why else would you do it if not for deepening connection? I can't think of anything that would be more worthless than sex without all three of those things. Would it even be fun?
Erika:
Good to hear your news. I would still like to 'put out and invitation.' You piqued my interest, I would like to continue our conversation if you are in Austin or I in San Fran. Best of Luck, I am
sincerely,
DonJon.
"Before your brother's holiness the world is still, and peace descends on it in gentleness and blessing so complete, that not one trace of conflict still remains to haunt you in the darkness of the night. He is your Savior from the dreams of terror. He is the healing of your sense of sacrifice, and fear that what you have will scatter with the wind, and turn to dust. In him is your assurance God is here, and with you now. While he is what he is, you can be sure that God is knowable, and WILL be known to you. For He could never leave His own creation. And the sign that this is so lies in your brother, offered you that all your doubts about yourself may disappear before his holiness."
That was wonderful. Did you write it yourself? Who's the author?
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